Navigating financial deserts is part and parcel of the artist life.
Sometimes
our work sells beautifully and provides us with everything we need to pay for
power, internet, and dinner out with dear friends. Other times we need to
supplement with regular work to allow us to keep doing what makes our hearts
sing. And now and then, life throws a curve ball where we don’t have enough
money, work has dried up, and each day becomes a struggle to keep trying and
cling to hope.
I went
through that struggling stage this year.
I had
finally built a great work/art balance and was so happy and excited about the
future. Then a boss reneged on a contract, my new boss announced that my job
would include sexual favors (I reported him), and the next boss disappeared, literally,
the day I was to receive my first pay check (I reported him too).
Reporting
those scoundrels felt good morally, but it was devastating financially. To go
without a sufficient paycheck for one month is manageable, but for five? It was
gutting. And stressful and scary and sad.
I knew I
had a choice to make. I had no power over getting a new job or suddenly having
enough money for all the bills piling up, but I had a choice in my attitude and
in how I used that time.
So, I had
a good cry, fumed about how unfair it all was, then took a deep breath, and a
few more, and chose to make the most of it.
I planted
gardens so we would always have something to eat, I cut back in every possible
way to lower our monthly bills, I collected wheelbarrows full of weeds and
grasses from the fields and gardens to keep our animals fed, and I applied for
every job I could find. Then, I created.
I
wood-burned spoons, cutting boards, and spatulas.
I harvested, dried, and blended herbal teas.
And I
wrote and published two books: “herb & spice: a little book of medieval
remedies” and “Desert Fire: medieval nomad food”.
I drew on
my experiences as a medieval reenactor, and the years of research and
experimentation I’ve done to make medieval medicines and medieval tribal food
for demonstrations I give at festivals and schools throughout the year.
I spent
weeks in my tiny kitchen slow-roasting lamb until it was fork-tender and moist
with flavorful drippings, and pounding together dates, clarified butter, honey,
and spices into beautiful spreads that never go off in the desert heat.
I
simmered elderberries with spices and raw honey into a nourishing cordial that
fortifies the immune system and helps stave off colds and flus, and mixed up
innumerable herbal concoctions to soothe sore throats, calm upset stomachs, and
ease headaches.
I
taste-tested and arranged photo shoots, edited photos and wrote stories,
histories, and recipes, designed the books, and finally, they were done,
printed, and in my hands.
They’ve
gone to new homes in Australia, Canada, and the United States, inspiring people
with the creativity and ingenuity of our ancestors who always knew how to use
fruits, vegetables, animals, and herbs to heal their ailments and provide the
nourishment they needed to care for their families.
When I
see them with my books now I feel so much warmth and love and gratitude, for
their creation saw me through months of deprivation and stress, anxiety and
grief, wondering if there would ever be light at the end of the tunnel again.
They are the product of hope, the belief that if we keep doing the work, things
will work out in the end.
Thankfully
I have consistent work now, with editors who keep their word, pay on time, and
treat me with respect and kindness. I’m slowly catching up financially, and
give thanks every time I have enough money to cover a new bill. And I’m so
proud that those dreadful months didn’t take me down, that, in the midst of
loss and pain, I made something good and beautiful.
This is
Week 34 of 52 Artists in 52 Weeks. Thank you for reading
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